a little simplicity before the crazy stuff/ crazy stuff will never happen

As I'm sitting here at this counter retouching at 3:35 am in the morning after shooting since 7am I ask the question.. what drives me to do all this? I enjoy it, I enjoy the creativity. But it seems lately no matter how hard I try to break out into something new it always blows up in my face... I've been trying my best as of lately to get into the high gloss fashion mind frame.. killer wardrobe , killer makeup artist and such... yet even with such a team I always find myself reverting to a simple approach to things..